So if you're reading this, please stop. I won't be reading the comments. I just feel like nothing. This is spam. Thank you if your not gonna continue reading. (I'm not suiciding, calm down.)
World is horrible. It hates me doesn't it? I wonder if my hard work is ever gone. I try so much to always stay by my friends. I stick with them. I cheer them on. I give them advice. Yet whenever it's me, it's like they all just abandon me. Does anyone even like me? I don't know anymore. I don't want to know anything. .___. IBL is horrible. It's not like I'm going back at school, ITS THE SUBJECTTTTS. Stupid boring subjects. Theres nothing to do about it. Then when I ask for help on trying to think for more actions, nobody even trys to listen yet they always ask me for help. Being smart doesnt make a difference. Then you've got drawingsss. Yaaaay not. AJDLIUWAHEF Why do I suck so muchhh? I can draw bodies at all, either hands. If you ever noticed all my drawings are just standing pose. Standing, hands behind back, huge smile. .___. I wish I drew better. Everyone calls me good but seriously no. I'm not fishing for comments, I'm not saying that 'oh i dont like mine so you will say its good;. Seriously, I'm just not happy with my drawings. If I ever were I'd admit it. But admitting my drawings is good doesn't mean I'm showing off. Jeez. .____. Good bye. I've had enough. I'm gonna go read. I forget about everything when I read. I wish I forgotten all the bad stuff in life.
i read(OMFG!!noo!:O), n i think you're gonna read the comments sometime anyho, so i'll continue being a biätch n write you an essay(mostly because, well. i wanna).
ReplyDeletei think, all in all. days like that are kinda good. when they're over, you've hopefully got a new perspective of what you want in life (that is,if you're still being honest with yourself). half a year ago i dumped my "friends", simply because they were bringing me down while using me as a stepping stone.(as you described, i'd cheer for them,listen n help them, but got nothing in return - well, they did have a way of always making fun of me in public). the funny thing is, they don't seem to miss me much after. the brilliant thing: i don't miss them either(which is half of a lie: i miss the idea of having friends - but then again,i didn't really have friends WITH them around).
i should mention that i talked to my former friends alot about this before stopping taking their calls, travle across the country to see them n stuff like that,but they didn't take it seriously. petting my head n stuff like that, saying that they had only been joking that i shouldn't be as sensitive. i think it's good though, to have talked to them before deciding something like i did. - so, i'm wondering. have you talked with your friends about this? that you need some more support? it's really akward talking to (supposedly close)ppl about these sort of things, but even if it SHOULD be "ofc", it's not that often.
about school i have nothing. i'm in a pinch there as well, n just wishing for time to pass faster. putting my efforts in other things i enjoy, like drawing n shietts. (i'm kinda academic, so i suppose i have it "easier" than my fellow students. NOT saying i don't work hard, when i have to.- like you wrote,i help many of my comrades with ther reports n essays, but then again. the work dosn't get done by it's own.)
when drawing is concerned, it's that always tiresome advice of DRAW MOAR. but i'd like to add, skip the traditions, n start working up the flow in your arm n wrist. also, change medium. if you've always drawed with a uhm.. what's their name?hb' pencils?you know, the ordinary ones,the ones you can erase? change it to an ink pen(any kind!-not just the gel based, since the ink often get stuck n thats just.. sad), which you can't erase n start drawing DIFFRENT types of img's, focusing on movements less than FORM.
anyho.. gotta run. sorry for the blabbering. good thing you're not gonna read this, right? :D yeah. bye for now. ^^
Sorry but I read it...
ReplyDeleteSome time in someone's life there'll be a week or even a month when that person is unhappy. Try and make that time a split second instead of days and you'll be fine.
Anyway, your drawings are amazing! You know what? I can't draw anime for toffee, lol. I think you should keep going-don't give up and don't care about what others think about you. Be you.
(I read anyways. sfhes)
ReplyDeleteDrend: I think I'm a bit like you, but then my friends aren't that bad. I know they like me, and they want me as a friend. But I wonder if they treasure me as a friend as much as I do. I just wonder sometimes.
Anna: Thank you Anna. TT . TT I'll try to make it shorter. Well if you never tried to draw anime, then you can't draw it? -shrugs- But maybe it's just my fault. I just like never want to watch video that are supposed to help you draw better. Because whenever I do, they don't help and I get bored too easily anyways.
No, it's not your fault. I think you're wonderful at anime, I think you should write a book. Videos to help people draw anime with the basics. If you find those videos boring then that's saying that you're great 'cuz you already know the stuff that they're teaching you. ;)
ReplyDeletebtw my younger cousin has started a blog and I was wondering if you could have a look. He doesn't have much comments or followers- he's a little down about that so if you could visit or follow that would be great. Thanks!
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Anna: Thank you.(: I feel better now. ^^ Sure, I'll have a look!
ReplyDeleteLook, life changes. You'll get over the highschool drama. It's most likely that you won't even be in contact with your current friends when you are older. This is a small chapter in your life that you just have to get through. It's better on the other side!
ReplyDeleteAnon: I hope high school isn't too bad! To me, even if I haven't seen much, to me, primary will always stay a big part of my life. I can never forget it. It won't be a small chapter to me. My memories here are very important to me. (:
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